I woke up this morning feeling that nervous stirring in my body. Was it the residual caffeine I had in the mocha from yesterday.? Coffee makes me edgy and interferes with my sleep. I know I shouldn’t drink it after 3, but I did it anyway. No that’s not it, what I am feeling is excitement and anticipation of the the new day. I am grateful for the do-over, the chance to be better, love more, pour into someones life, be a better friend, wife, mother, sister. The questions is, what are you? You can be what ever you choose to be. I choose Light! There is so much pain, sadness and fear in the world today. We can be sucked into the vortex of hopelessness or we can choose to be hopeful, encouraging and fearless. We can speak life and truth into every dark place and then be about being the change we want to see in the earth. We can’t do it alone, we call upon our Heavenly Father to work through us. Be instruments for His glory in the earth. Every small bit of love and kindness we show, beats back the forces of darkness and sheds light. Remember a single candle bring light to a dark room, so be Light!
Happy Father’s Day June 19, 2011
It’s Fathers Day, Sunday, June 18th this year. I made my husband, father of my children breakfast in bed and he gets to lie around today and do absolutely nothing! I wish I could shower him with gifts. He is the best Dad ever! Having the day off is a treat for him as he works so hard and has so many projects going on. Having your own business means you rarely get a day off. Sweetie, enjoy your day.
John Ralph Eubanks, my bio-dad, died when I was just 5 years old. He was a boxer, and from what I hear a pretty good one. He was a contender for the Golden Gloves Championship which is a big deal in boxing circles. I don’t have clear memories of him. I only have one photo which is a copy of a dime store photo booth picture from the 1960s. He’s been gone for over 40 years and I still miss him.
He will come to mind from time to time when I look at my sons face. He will have an expression that will make me see my Dad’s face.
Every milestone in my life I wish that he could have been there; graduation from High School, joining the Air Force, my first concert, College, walking me down the aisle at my wedding. It’s those times when I wish that he was there, smiling at me, telling me how proud he was. I feel a bit sad, then I see my husband playing with our children and it warms my heart.
Celebrate your Dad, Father, Pop Pop, G-Pa or whatever pet name you call him. Love and celebrate him today and every day. He’s Dad.
Make Opportunities June 17, 2011
I am so excited! I found out recently that I got the role of Evillene in Afterthought Theatre’s production of “The Wiz”. What makes me so excited is that I went after the role with every intention of getting it. I auditioned by singing “No Bad News” I put on my best growling voice and mannerism. For 3 minutes I was Evillene! I got the role. What an opportunity!
I say that to encourage those who think that there aren’t many opportunities out there. I believe you just have to make your own. Don’t be locked into what you have always done. In the words of my friend Dr. Peggy, “Do Something Different For A Change”!
I haven’t always felt that way. I worked in the corporate world clocking out my 60+ hours as week, getting my salary plus commission. At first it was fun. I sold stuff. I made myself believe that this career move would satisfy the longing in my heart to be something else, to do something else. I mean, I had obligations! Children still at home, a husband who had just took early retirement. It was my duty; I had to take one for the team. After a while, I was miserable! I remember saying to God, “What am I doing here, this is not my life” I longed to be released, but I felt I couldn’t go. How could I go? I had obligations, bills, how would we live? God heard me. I got laid off. The shoe had dropped, now what! I felt panicked. Now everything I ever said about God being a provider and believing He had a plan, He had my back, was put to the test.
I had been working as a volunteer at my church in the Prophetic Arts Drama Department. We had done several plays and I so enjoyed the work. An opportunity came up for me to audition for other plays. When I got the first part I was surprised and thrilled. So I was acting, directing and started singing for private events. I felt so fulfilled. Eventually I will make money, because I am not giving up. But through it all God has provided in so many unexpected ways. It really is amazing.
The point is, at this time in my life I am living my dream, I’m doing what I have always loved doing. I am learning how to trust God, look for opportunities, and be ready to take advantage of them.
Work on and do the thing you love. Ask God and trust Him to direct your path.
Its always sunny in Denver! June 16, 2011
Have you ever had a waking dream? You know where you are doing stuff, it seems so real, but you are actually asleep? I have actually woken up during a waking dream and got really upset because I was sure what I was doing was real. Then I felt silly because I was in a different part of the house, or standing at the foot of my bed doing something that didn’t make sense.
It’s like how we walk through life sometimes. The life we are living seems so real, the choices we make, the relationships that we are in. We are in a waking dream. We are not living out our true humanity. We have chosen to mimic someone else’s life, or allowed ourselves to be programmed, manipulated, processed and assimilated. We are constantly being bombarded by images of so-called perfection, if we have the right car, house, and job. If we look a certain way, are the “right” weight, wrinkle free skin, no gray hair, or back fat, perfect teeth, and straight hair that our lives would be bliss.
A con is being run on us that the creator of the universe made a mistake when He made us. I am sure I remember reading that when God made man, He said, “It was good” Sure we want to be our best, keep our weigh down be healthy don’t eat too much and all that. Don’t buy into the lie that you are not beautiful, fearfully and wonderfully made. That is just a trick to keep you from living your life! If the enemy can keep you so focused on the external, you won’t groom and grow the internal. That part of you that is powerful, spiritual, connected to God and destined for great things.
Denver has over 300 sunny days a year! I’ve seen people get sunburn in the winter! That just blows my mind. Yet there are some who don’t see the sunshine because their spirit is so clouded with fear, guilt and doubt. Cause they bought into the con!
Look to the Son so you can see the sun. Allow its bright, clear warmth surround you. Live and Be the beautiful person you are meant to be…fearlessly!
Blogging and other stuff June 15, 2011
So I haven’t been blogging. Frankly, I didn’t think anyone was that interested in what I thought or what I was doing. I’ve changed the way I look at it. I mean, it’s like when you learn something new or have an experience you want to share. In this information age blogging is the way to get it done.
Welcome to the 21st century, right? Technology is such a big part of life today. It’s as much a part of our lives as breathing. I had a friend who misplaced her phone and was frantic because as she exclaimed, “my life is in that phone!” With that said, I am jumping in.
Artistically this has been a very good year. I have been singing, acting, directing…I am living my dream.
You know when you have those times when you evaluate your life and ask, what is it all for, whats my purpose? Recently I had one of those self talks. I am at the time in my life where there is starting to be more years behind me and I ask myself if the choices I made were right.
Now that my children are adults, did I do the right things raising them. I hope Lord that I did most of the time. I wanted to model a zest for life, honestly, spiritual roots and personal growth. I wanted them to see that they could be anything they wanted to be. That there is no time limit on dreams. And God only wants the best for them. Sure I blew it more than once, but my love for them is without any earthly equal.
I hope that as you and I share that we will find strength, hope and encouragement. That our words are lights that shine the way into someones heart and life.
Our best years are ahead, so lets go for it with all we’ve got!
Blessings & Peace, until Tomorrow…